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  • Justice delayed but cannot be denied

    It will be 34 years next week that a bomb brought down PanAm Flight 103, headed from London to New York a few days before Christmas on Dec. 21, 1988. It has been more than a news story or something that happened because it killed a young woman, Patricia Coyle, from my hometown, and 269 other people.

    She was 20 years old, a few months younger than me.

    I have marked that date ever since, and yearned for justice for those we lost. Today, there’s word that a man who was linked to the attack is in custody. It’s been a long and often discouraging hunt for Justice in this case. But I am glad that even after more than three decades, authorities in the United States and in Scotland haven’t forgotten Patricia and the others, on the plane and on the ground, who lost their lives that night.

  • Walking that Silver Strand

    Ever hear a song you were sure would be a big hit, but it never happened?

    For me, that song is “Silver Strand,” by Baxter Robertson. When I first heard it in 1983, I thought it had what it took. ‘Course, I was 16 and had no idea what made a hit record, and I still don’t. But in 2022, I still hold by my opinion.

    I was browsing YouTube this morning and it came up, incredibly, and I listened to it twice. It had been a long, long time. Took me back.

    It’s 39 years later, but I can still tell you where I first heard “Silver Strand”: The legendary San Diego alternative music station 91X. I listened to 91X for hours on end in 1982, 1983 and 1984. Think of SiriusXM’s First Wave radio station but all those bands — The (English) Beat, Talking Heads, Modern English, The Clash, The Specials, B-52s, Violent Femmes — in their heyday or close to it.

    It was awesome. When my stepfather was transferred back to the East Coast and we had to move, I bought a bunch of cassette tapes and recorded hours and hours of 91X so that I had something to remember it by. I knew it would be a long time before I got back and it was, 21 years later.

    “Silver Strand” wasn’t necessarily in 91X’s wheelhouse back then. But they played it because there might have been a local connection: The Silver Strand is a famous and scenic part of Coronado, California, where I lived. So that made the song stick in my mind even more.

    It was, and is, a great song, a prime example of early 1980s power pop. There’s even the video, which is pretty fun and was filmed somewhere in LA, not the Silver Strand I know.

    It took me a long time to find the album, back in 1984 when I was back in New York City, going through the record bins like I loved to do back then. I had that album for along, long time.

    Like I said, I thought it would be huge. It wasn’t. And it seems to have been mostly forgotten, which is a shame. There are 167 likes for the song on YouTube. It’s not even a song you can buy on iTunes.

    I tried my part. When I got back East, the local college radio station was taking requests. For only the second time in my life, I called in.

    “Silver Strand,” I said.

    There was a pause.

    “Baxter Robertson,” the DJ replied. “Jesus. I don’t know if we have that. But I’ll look.”

    It took about an hour, but I was still listening when “Silver Strand” came on the radio.

  • Remembering Dec. 7 … and not

    It’s Dec. 7, a date which will live in infamy. But will it live that way forever?

    The attack on Pearl Harbor occurred in 1941, when my grandparents had just graduated high school and several years before my parents were born. Yet no one in those two generations, the one that came of age during World War II or the one that came afterward, would ever forget what happened.

    And so it was for my generation, even though I was born 26 years after the attack. When I was growing up, the World War II generation — Tom Brokaw’s “The Greatest Generation” — was still in the workforce, even though they were beginning to retire. Both my grandparents were World War II veterans. So were some of our teachers and our parents’ bosses and coworkers. Even in my first professional job, in the late 1980s, I worked not only with two World War II veterans but one who had been at Pearl Harbor, 81 years ago today.

    So in that limited way, Pearl Harbor was one degree of separation. Since it was the only attack on United States territory since the War of 1812, it still had a lot of meaning. And it was kept alive by FDR’s iconic speech the day after the attack — it’s where “the day that will live in infamy” comes from — and by movies from “From Here to Eternity” (also a good book), “Tora! Tora! Tora” and, more recently, “Pearl Harbor.”

    Yet Pearl Harbor has been receding from memory. The World War II generation is fading rapidly from the scene and, increasingly, so are their kids. It’s been eight decades since the attack and so much has changed since then. I wonder, just on that basis alone, whether or not Pearl Harbor will continue to fade as something to remember in the coming generations.

    That’s hard to believe a bit. People alive 81 years ago today remembered, until they died, could tell you where they were when they heard about the Pearl Harbor attack. The same way that those alive in November 1963 could tell you were they were when they heard about President John F. Kennedy’s assassination. Or where you were when the World Trade Center was attacked.

    I know I won’t ever forget that.

    But even 9/11, which is one of the most vivid memories in my life, is no longer universal. For the 25 years or more of people born either after 9/11 or who were too young to remember, it has less of an impact. It’s just another date. I felt that way about Pearl Harbor and JFK’s assassination, the latter that took place four years before I was born. They were significant dates in history, yes. But they were also significant to my parents and my grandparents and great-grandparents. It wasn’t significant to me.

    I fell into that trap with 9/11. It was personal to me, as I lived in the New York metro area at the time, and covered the attacks and the aftermath. A childhood acquaintance died at the Trade Center. And it was one of the signature moments of our era, which rings down even more than two decades later. But with the generation since, that’s not the case. I fear 9/11 will soon become part of history and not as much of a lived experience and pain point as it was for those of us who were alive then, and that bothers me. The passage of time will do that.

    Like how I have felt about Dec. 7.

  • Why a blog?

    While I have written for a living my entire professional career, I don’t blog. Or at least I haven’t in a long time. I certainly continue to read them, but most of my nonprofessional writing has been on social media or in other venues.

    It’s been years. The last time was 2010. A lot has happened since then.

    So, why now?

    Because I’ve got things I should say, although they don’t fit into the outlets I have available. I want to write more and different.

    So, this blog. I don’t know how many times I will be writing. I have no real thought of an audience, other than the ideal reader that I always write to.

    But I plan to share my voice as long as I can.

  • Reinvention

    Amazing when a random article can bring all the feels, when you least expect it. I started over in the Hudson Valley, too.

  • Words to live by

    “Confront the dark parts of yourself and work to banish them with illumination and forgiveness. Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing.”
    August Wilson

    They are the words I live by, and have done so since I first came upon this quote in Esquire in the late 1980s. I wrote it down then, and I’ve kept it near to my heart ever since. And the times in my life when I haven’t been what I should have been, haven’t followed my heart, haven’t kept to what was true, they are the times when I failed to adhere to this lesson.

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Journalist and writer. Loves writing, storytelling, books, typewriters. Always trying to find my line. Oh, and here’s where I am now.

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